Chester Misery…But – Just be You

A complete misery of a mood overtook my mind as I walked around Chester looking for a spot. Four other buskers occupied the prime spots of Chester, three of which were vocalists singing to backing tracks, but with a phone or tablet on a stand for lyrics – I’ve never understood this, kind of seems more like street-karaoke rather than busking, I understand it when vocalists perform from memory and you can feel/see their passion for singing. More of a passion than a quick grab for cash which is what I feel when I see street-karaoke, but if it works for them and makes them/the street happy, then awesome, go do that! It can sometimes be dis-heartening, but I suppose the general public enjoy singing and hearing songs they know – that’s the X-Factor culture influence kicking in. But generally as humans we don’t like things that are different, it’s uncomfortable and uncomfortable means unsafe in our natural instinctual way of being.

But anyway, I compromised and found a quieter spot to play, but I just sat there with this misery consuming me, making me angry – I rarely get angry. My mind shouting all sorts of questions and feelings I haven’t felt in some time; what’s the point? no-one wants to listen, I’m just in the way, not doing anything of value, I should be out doing something more and giving more to the world, you’re just playing the same stuff and no-one wants to hear it, whats the actual point of it all? you suck! 

And then I said, ‘SHUT UP!’, the weird angry thoughts soon stopped, interrupting with ‘but this…and this..and….’ – ‘NO!’. I set up as quick as I could and started playing.

The truth is no-one cares, and you can see that in two ways;
‘No-one cares, whats the point?!’
or,
‘Wait… no-one cares? Then I can just be me and do what I feels is of value!’

No-one wants to hear you complain, complaining sucks. I hear people complain all the time about tiny little things, I always wonder why their mind is consumed by it, I mean I understand it to a certain degree because of having moments like it, but I realise how unproductive and negative it is on the mind.

We are so small in this world we have,
Why would you worry about little things,
Just take all and enjoy it now,
We have this one life
https://chatfield.bandcamp.com/track/the-little-things

I have to learn where that misery grew and control it better next time. But playing music sure helped, busking definitely helped. So to answer that mindsets question – ‘Whats the point?’ – the point is, it helps me stay happy and keeps my mind in a good place, which in turn helps me lead a happier more productive life – that is the point!

Find what makes you happy and use it as medicine when you feel not so good inside. 

Live stream from a portion of the set;

Over breakfast this morning I wrote in detail, this whole idea that busking helps you deal with rejection (I’ll keep adding before posting). With this constant stream of people walking past, some really don’t care, some look down on you, some throw insults at you, some pull their children away from you as they run in excitement towards the music “Ahhh, stay away, don’t catch the music big!“. I used to get upset by it, but now I’ve learnt to accept that not everyone is interested in everything. We’re all different and we all enjoy our own things, if we took notice of absolutely everything and enjoyed everything then we’d probably go crazy! No ones obliged to pay attention to you.

But busking is great in the sense that it pulls those out of the crowd that do really enjoy your music and that do find value in what you are doing. Which I feel applies to anything that you start doing, if you start doing something and exposing it to the world, documenting it online or just telling people everywhere, then you’ll soon pull out those from the crowd that really align with what you are doing. Opportunities that match your needs will come to you, when you just be you and do what you want to do.

So just be you and do what you want to do!

In the sense of it making you and others happy and bringing value to the world. Not in the sense of doing whatever you want and forgetting about the consequences that hurt others.

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An elderly couple walking the high-street, intertwined hands, a smile so sweet to each other it melts your face off – clearly their love for one another has been infinite and so true. I imagine their life to be somewhat simple, sweet and beautiful. Maybe they found love at a park bench, an accidental touch of hands as one sits down, a smile opening the heart to a whole new world, a voice tickling the ears in a soothing, addictive manner, all dancing and swirling into a story of magic and love.

Their attention from each others eyes, drew to the sound of a busker, turning and freezing still, totally absorbed and intrigued, they both felt something good. Their smiles rising simultaneously as though they were one. Walking over in unison, “We’ve never seen anything like this before! How fantastic!”, throwing in a little golden coin.

Just incredible, it raised the day to another level of joy and wiped away the negative mindset created earlier. In all their life they having seen anything like this, that’s something to smile about!

Forever grateful!


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The Tiny Chester Busk

In today’s account of busking around the world, not much busking was done. This comes from my habitual desire to constantly be on the move, which I realise can be a flaw at times, as that urge to move even if I really like a place i.e. Snowdonia, pushes me away from something perfectly peaceful and someplace that needs time to be fully absorbed and appreciated. To define Nomad – ‘a person that travels from place to place and has no permanent home’,  in this Podcast Episode – ‘Become Nomad – Episode 1‘, the host gives his explanation to what a ‘Nomad’ is, as he’s been travelling for five years now, living about one month at a time in places. A lesson can be learnt from this, that being a ‘Nomad’ doesn’t mean I have to move so frequently – so take things slowly, give time for attachment and be patient in the process. Part of me feels like I need to see everything all so soon, but the age of 25, means I have SO much time to explore.

I got a hostel last night instead. Differing to sleeping in a car, you’d expect to have a better night sleep, right? But a car doesn’t snore or make a bunch of racket at 3am!! haha, awoken loudly by the snoring man of room 29! – ‘dam you, you crazy man!’ – ah well! – we all snore at times, it’s part of the Hostel experience.

To unsuccessfully finding anywhere for coffee and breakfast at 9am in Conwy. Such a beautiful town with an incredible castle that sits by the water, but no cafes open at 9?!

First drive, Conwy to Bangor;

Sitting by this clock tower in Bangor, thinking of busking here, but having some weird urge to just run away. Reading – As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning – finding lots to relate on with Laurie, the man who walked to London and pursued travel with using busking to fund it. Both inspirational and grants confirmation that I’m doing something of worth.

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Drive from Bangor to Llandudno;

Walking around Llandudno, enjoying these views, finding the perfect spot, but then a puppet show taking over with loud echoing volume. Dammit! I began feeling I wasn’t meant to be busking today, and maybe I wasn’t meant to? I feel sometimes it’s a necessity to do it every single day, which I understand, because I love it, but sometimes a break from it does help, it’s just actually hard to allow myself to just not busk.

So I moved on, again.

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From Llandudno;

Here in Chester, ah finally, a spot, a chance to busk a few hours. But after 20 minutes of playing, rain came + being the time it was, there wasn’t really anyone about, which at times doesn’t feel worthwhile busking, because you’re not affecting anyone, but in actual fact you are, because it doesn’t matter how many people walk past, it matters who walks past. That one person could be having an awful day and your music could switch their mind upside down to a positive and loving place. You just gotta do it, regardless of how many people are about.

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In that short space of 20 minute, a mother and her daughter bought a CD, as they walked away they stopped and read the CD, turning to each other and smiling, then turning to me, they knew that I knew, we shared a rather big smile!

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A rather kind soul with extremely kind words, posting up on Instagram after buying a CD from me. I was busking in Tenby and this girl was watching the entire time, a smile so wide it pushed positivity into all those around her, waving her head and feet about in such a happy manner. She disappeared and came back for this CD, “which one shall I take, left or right?” as she could decide between the two designs. It’s amazing to connect with people in such a lovely way and bring something good to their life!

Even though I need to learn to have the odd day off from busking to rest my hands and mind. I know for dam sure that I need to be making music every day, if it creates positive change like this!


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A Surprise View of Wonder – Happiness is Key

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Settling in to this tiny little Kia Picanto – ‘Welcome to the Hotel Kia Picanto’, as comfortably as one can. Seat far down, pillow, blanket and with the added tiredness from a two-hour drive, sleep came fast and easy. Arriving here at night there was no detail in the surroundings other than shadowy outlines of the mountains.

Then the sun woke me up “yo, wake up, check this out!”. My eyes opened and I screamed with excitement, the views burst brightly in my face, I was overwhelmed with joy and loving thoughts. Jumping out the car, breathing in the peacefulness of it all, the sound was pure, silence within beauty.

We’re so small in this world, surrounded by gigantic things. But it’s fascinating because even though we’re so small, we can create and build things so big! Everything around us was once just an idea sat in someones mind, that fridge, that postbox, that apple pie, that car etc etc. And if it’s a natural thing, then someone took the time and energy to study it, to give it a name, share it’s existence and teach others about it. It’s incredible, all of us, every single one of us, is helping to create the world and reality that we live in. Don’t let your ideas and dreams die!

More beautiful views below from a morning hike. Featuring a sheep that was annoyed at my presence.
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It’s beautiful. Being amongst nature this expansive is really inspiring and healing, like, everything is fine, you have time, you are alive amongst beauty like this, you are a part of this. Coming here was the right thing, I had a feeling of doubt and utter loneliness yesterday, that I felt lost on my path. But it cleared as I took the time to just be and not think about working or doing.

Take time to be a part of nature.


From hiking around Snowdonia to making noise around Caernarfon.

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The intent was to busk a little, as last week in Tenby I played many hours every day and my hands began to hurting a little, so to take it easy over the next few days is the plan + songwriting is a must!

The exploration of this place was fun! A very colourful and happy atmosphere/presence. A very friendly book store, where I purchased – As I Walked Out One Midsummer Morning – actually recommended by a man I met in a hostel in Cardiff, it’s about someone who wonders to London with a violin and the intent to survive through busking. I feel it’ll be an inspiration with this journey I’m on and also push me to turn these blog posts into an actual book – now that would be awesome – to write a book!

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On an end note – Happiness.

Happiness is key, it’s so important!

What makes you happy? What really makes you happy? Forgetting materialism, fame and money. What makes your soul happy? Is it creating, is it making other people happy, is it drawing dragons on glass, is it playing football, is it playing games with your friends online, is it cooking, is it providing for your children…what ever it is – that’s the gift that will both grant you happiness and this world happiness!

Whatever makes you happy – do everything in your power to do that every single day.

Gary Vaynerchuk and his words help me out of the darkness inside and helps me understand life. His words have helped push my energy to pursue the goals and dreams inside. I recommend his words massively.

Happiness is key!


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4 Minutes to Say Something

Dammit! 4 minutes till tomorrow! Don’t break the daily blog posts. I maybe had a rather busy day, which involved three busking sets! One which was streaming live on Instagram, live streaming is amazing and I want to do it more. I’m in the process of using an app that allows me to stream on multiple platforms at once, it’s just amazing how many people you can reach with the Internet now, and in some ways scary that you can. But after the three busking sets, I had a gig! In Vista Cafe, Tenby, Wales. It was a lot of fun,

2 minutes!

But I started with so many nerves and thoughts of a negative nature, I believe its because I haven’t gigged in so long that my confidence was low and I didn’t feel prepared or good enough for a gig. But a failure is another step to a success, fail forwards as Will Smith would say

Dammit 1 minute!

That’s all you get


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Church Doors Cove – Take Your Gifts Everywhere – You Are Important

This spot – Church Doors Cove in Pembrokeshire, is just beautiful!

An insanely captivating view with the best invitation to jump right in, swim and climb. Best thing, this spot is a couple minutes away from the YHA hostel in Manorbier. Every morning I’ve stayed here, this has been one of the first things I’ve seen. I love it!

I sat upon a high rock watching the water and songwriting, see video above.

All my stuff there. To the left of this picture was a couple of families, so I was partial supplying music for them, but songwriting isn’t really a performance, repeating things over and over slowly to gain precision. At least I thought it wouldn’t disturb the families – it didn’t – because the next day (as in songwriting was 20th,the next day-this day the 21st) whilst I was busking in Tenby, the Mom’s of each family approached me.

“I saw you at Church Doors yesterday, I thought you were busking but then I realised you were just in your own world. But it made it magic. It was really soothing and fitting to the spot, thank you”.

It was crazy that we bumped into each other here, or is it crazy? Because both Tenby and Church Doors Cove are tourists places to see in Pembrokeshire… What is crazy? Another question for another blog post.

From this I learnt that just being you and taking your gifts everywhere with you, not being afraid to just do whatever it is you do. Can open doors and give people something of meaning.

You are important, your existence is important.

Important means; to hold great significance or value.

You are of great value!

Goodnight, sleep well.

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Stay Childish and Be Curious

As a busker, I spend a lot of my time sat down, in the middle of the high street, and often I people watch. It’s fascinating, catching snippets and creating stories of someones life; what are they doing, where are they going and what kind of person are they. This beginning almost opens up a hundred different avenues to go down and write about. But I want to write about the children that I see from a fly-on-the-wall perspective.

Children are curious, they’re creative and they’re just so amazed by the things that surround them. When they see someone playing music on the streets, their reaction is interesting to watch;

“look at that guitar man!”,
“look Mum, what’s he doing?”,
“whoaw, two guitars!”,
“wat u doinnnnnn?!”,
“what is that you are playing?”,
“can I have a go?”,
“my Daddie plays guitar!”,
“I play piano, and I’m really really good, I can play twinkle twinkle star, can you play twinkle twinkle star?”…

Their excitement just to run up and say exactly whats on their mind is wonderful, like they’re running towards you holding this colourful water balloon that pops and explodes into words, questions and wonder. Sometimes they’ll get really close to the ‘stage’ and just stare intensely, like they’re amazed but haven’t learnt how to react to it just yet. At times, this is the first live musical experience the child is having – how amazing is that? A human, a tiny and new to this world human has yet to discover where music comes from. Perhaps they’ve seen it on a screen before, but not yet in real life. That first experience of seeing live music, must be incredible, absolutely incredible. I can’t quite remember my first time experiencing live music, but I remember as a child I would always be amazed watching my Dad play chords on the guitar. The fact that this thing, this wooden strange shaped thing, would create such a cool sound, what the fridge?!

There’s a lesson to be learnt by children, a lesson I feel people neglect at times. But this lesson of showing curiosity. As following your curiosities leads you down incredible and life-changing paths. To ask questions about everything in life, “What are wasps actual purpose other than to annoy the hell out of us?”, “What would happen if I hung upside down and painted this forest that I see?”, “Where does that off-road path lead?”, “What if I just packed in this job I hate and move to Canada and work in a cafe?” etc etc. I could list a billion questions as there’s an infinite things to be curious about in this world and within our minds, but I don’t want to spend all of time writing questions, I want to spend all of time exploring my curiosities – “What would happen if I write daily blog posts and send them to magazines, companies etc? Could I turn it into a job?” (my current curiosity).

Elizabeth Gilbert writes in ‘Big Magic’, how following your curiosity is more important than following your passion. That you should learn to ask the questions that lead you onward. Each footstep being a new question, each question leading you closer to a new discovery, each discovery gifting you new knowledge, each bit of knowledge building further understanding of this world, then ultimately understanding which bit of the world you want to fit into, which job you want to pursue, which person to love, where to live etc. Curiosity takes you down this wonderful path, a path of growth and knowledge.

Children seem to have this skill of curiosity. I don’t have children of my own, I wish to one day, but I have younger siblings, and their curiosities fascinate me greatly. The way in which they word questions at times;
“Where are you going to live tomorrow? then where are you going to live next week?” – my little sister Emily asked as I was hugging goodbye, both leaving Forest of Dean, Emily leaving with the family back to Worcestershire, me leaving towards Cardiff. Perhaps the way in which a question is asked is different to curiosity, but it sits within context to how creative a child’s mind is. That process in her mind of, ‘James visits lots of different places, so where does he live? does he move house all the time?’, it’s her curiosity to understand something by just asking the question that comes to mind. Sometimes I feel as adults we get too worried about just asking a question, the fear of looking a fool or being judged by another, but you shouldn’t live in fear of what others think of you, otherwise you’ll never get to express yourself fully – just be you! Because YOU are you for a reason, we’re each different and unique, we all matter, YOU matter!

Following the curiosity of a child’s curiosity asking questions, I’ve started doing it more. Spending time in hostels, passes you by lots of people, all with interesting stories and knowledge to share, different views on the world, with great conversations and discussions to have. There was a stage in my life where I was too afraid to ask someone a question, so I would just presume the answer myself, which often lead to me being anti-social, feeling alone and sometimes depression would peep into my mind, “alone are ya? feeling like you can’t speak to anyone? yep, you can’t, alone forever, no one wants to hear your voice, sorry, that’s just the way it is” (now through the act of daily training in self-love and meditation, I stand up and push that awful voice away). I only wish I’d got the courage to ask people questions sooner, but it’s all a growing process.

Now when I walk into a hostel room and see someone, I’ll ask them a question about their presence here, unless their in meditation position sat on the kitchen table – don’t disturb their peace. But it leads to a wonder of conversations and I’ll always come out with new knowledge, they know the land better and can direct me to a cool place to visit, or they’ll share an interesting book to read or musician to check out, or suggest an idea with my personal travels. This curiosity has filled my journals with interesting entries and made my days so much better. Recently driving quite late to a hostel, I was feeling a little low and just wanted to shut off from the world, but to check into the hostel I had to walk into the bar, and I had to interrupt a group conversation, “where you heading dude?…awesome! Why? ….oh really you’re a busker? …I used to be too …yeah I travelled all over” = cool conversation that pulled me from the darkness my mind was brewing.

What I want to leave you with, is that – to follow your curiosities, to go on a life long epic quest to find the answer to all those questions that come into your mind from some place either internal or external. To ask a stranger why he’s shouting poetry on top of a phone-box (oh Theo, I do hope you’re okay). To ask the world where you should go. To ask yourself the deep questions inside, to ask questions to help you understand yourself more. To follow your curiosity in a career or university course. Trust me (or don’t, that’s cool, chances are we haven’t met), when you start following your curiosities it’ll take down some amazing paths, it’ll bring amazing people into your life, it’ll make you feel amazing and it’ll make you thirst for more questions and more knowledge. It’ll also help you discover what you do and don’t like, where you want to and don’t want to be, who you do and don’t want to spend your time with.

Curiosity + Action = Adventure & Growth

I do fear that some parents are shutting out curiosity within their children, like it’s a bad thing to be curious. I see and hear it a lot, a child will be trailing behind their Mum who is focused deeply on moving forwards and scrolling their phone simultaneously, “Mum! look at that man playing guitar! look Mum, Look!”, the Mum responding after the child shouts this 3 or 4 times, doesn’t look back at the child “Come on, hurry up, stop being slow!” – maybe the Mum is actually being slow here? Where the child wants to follow curiosity?
I’ve seen this scenario many times, now I don’t know the situation or the people, so I can’t make judgement on them, they could be rushing to drive somewhere super important. But from the body language of the parent I fear they get annoyed to often at their young for being curious. Is it so bad to ask questions? The child has sometimes pulled their parent to turn around, but they just shut down the child’s curiosity. Or the parent will drag the child away quickly, in fear that the busking man will infect them with a creative outburst – oh dam not that bug!

Look at this;

This little girl, Freda is just incredible, her Mum too. This is why curiosity is so important, because it makes us do wonderful things like this, it makes us happy! Look how happy she is just jumping about making up dance moves! If her dancing doesn’t make you smile, then…..


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Motivation from Stationary Future Thinkings

They say its motivating to picture your dream life 5 years from now. But I feel its much more moving and powerful to picture yourself 5 years from now not having jumped for those dreams, not having quit that job you dislike, not having gone after that person you felt romantically towards, not having taken a leap of faith towards those ideas running wild in your mind, not having developed the skills you have. Just staying still in the routines and places you are currently in. When I visualise that, it freaks me out and motivates me to move forwards in so many ways, to develop myself as a person, to bring life to the ideas and goals I have inside, to take leaps towards romance, to travel new places and to experience new things.

If imagining that makes you content and happy, then that is amazing, and I’m truly happy for you! Happiness is so important. But if you picture that life and don’t like what you see. Then I emplore you to take a leap of faith, to not give in to fear, to continue and continue growing into the person you wish to be. We live every day, not just once. Each day is a new beginning if you so wish to allow it to be, each day opens new doors to learn and experience new things, each day allows you to connect with strangers and to meet new people. So take a stand towards the dreams and goals you have, give them life, step by step you’ll change your world and ultimately the entire world.

To have followed my gut instinct and quit a retail job I disliked 3 years ago has been one of my best moments. I look back and wonder who I’d of been if I didn’t just jump, if I stayed. Just grateful I did jump. This journey has been amazing so far, it hasn’t always been easy. Loneliness is the biggest enemy and at times quite a painful feeling. But the joy I feel to busk and share good energy on the streets to strangers is worth those moments of pain. There are a lot of things I wish to be and wish to have, but those things come with time and patience. Time and patience is something that I’ve learnt to have, they’re important, patience especially is so important.

Be kind to others and be kind to yourself!

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